So we did a pretty deep exercise today, all of which I'll lay out in this post.
We first had to write down points on ourselves based on 4 titles: Emotion, Physical, Intellect and Spirit. What are the traits we can identify and analyse about ourselves that fit under these titles?
Well these were mine that I could identify in 10 minutes. A bit intimate, but I'm laying it bare for the sake of analysing and deconstructing myself.
Emotionally:
- I'm relaxed while also feeling pressured by everything I do. Conflicted.
- I get easily frustrated, flustered and angry about ... things.
- I'm sooo friendly. Is that a problem? Probably in some cases, in others, definitely not!
Physically:
- I'm usually wearing all black, fit with baggy tees, hoodies and tracksuit bottoms.
- I love my jewellery.
- I have tattoos solely on my left arm, all of which have meaning to me.
Intellect:
- I thoroughly enjoy learning new things, especially in the creative industry.
- I love deep and intimate conversations about life. I like to hear about people's experiences of life.
- I get excited to think about my evolution as a creative, the places I'll end up and the people I'll meet along the way.
Spirit:
- I always put others before myself whenever I can. That's definitely a bad thing in a lot of personal circumstances...
- I love to share. Being a Christian, I believe in Christian ethics highly, which is possibly a deep link to my values at the core level.
- I love a chill, relaxed and fun atmosphere where people can be themselves and be happy.
I realised at this point that the 'physical' section of the task was vastly different than the other three sections. Namely, my style and physical appearance doesn't fit my attitude.
I'm a lover of black/dull-coloured clothes, my tattoos have deep and personal meaning to me, my upbringing and my experiences, and this doesn't outwardly suit my extroverted, friendly personality.
Self-love is often attributed to things such as fitness, health, how you dress, how you speak etc., and a lack of any of these things can mean I don't truly value myself. (Wow this got deep real quick!)
An opportunity based on these points that I noticed is that I've really got to start loving myself more. A bit of self-love and self-belief could drastically change how my creative process is made. I need to believe what people are saying about my potential, and act upon it for my own benefit, rather than be too scared to jump in the deep end. Whew... that was a lot to unpack and analyse.
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